Please Bear With Me!!

[KayDee]

Hi again, everyone, I seem to be having some difficulty finding my way around here, so if I post something that needs to be moved to a different forum, I have no problem with that. I hope to get better aquainted with the terrain here very soon!! And I know I'll enjoy my time here getting to know all of you! {benetton}

[jamesglewisf]

It's absolutely no problem. That's why we have moderators. Even we make mistakes, so don't sweat it.

Check out my latest blunder here:

http://frappydoo.com/forum/showthread.php3?threadid=605&pagenumber=2

Page 2 - 3rd post from the bottom.

As soon as I'm perfect, I'm going to start demanding perfection from you also. In the meantime, we'll mess things up together.

One thing to remember is that this is FrappyDoo!!! We don't take anything too seriously, so relax and have fun.

[Austruck]

We do take typographical and grammatical errors seriously, though, so don't mess with us there!

One typo and you're out of here, babe!

Whoops, sorry ... living out my deepest fantasy there for a moment. Don't mind me. Proofreaders really just want to rule the world.

Yoo can maik all the tyops ewe wont two. Eye wohnt tel.

[blinc]

KayDee, if you have any questions, please post them! We'd love to try and help you with anything you're having difficulty with. We're all dazed and confused {dizzy} and a tad crazy 'round here, so don't feel like you're alone! :)

[KayDee]

Thanks for the kind words..I can't guarantee my typing will improve a whole lot, but maybe I'll get better at determining where to post my messeges!! :)

With all the emotional and physical upheaval going on in my life over the last several weeks(since before Christmas and actually over the past year) it was a miracle I could think clearly enough to type at all...but with the court hearing behind me, I can now relax a little and try to think about the future. The thing is, I think my body has become addicted to the adrenalin rush...is this possible? I've become so used to the fight or flight instinct or whatever it's called, that my body can't accept that the perceived or actual danger is past. My heart starts to race and I break out in a sweat and I have to tell myself to calm down. When my first marraige ended I had anxiety attacks like you wouldn't believe...I almost lost it in the grocery store on several different occasions. And my husband was more than two hundred miles away!! Well, enough whining...

[blinc]

Like Jim said, if you post something in the wrong place, that's what we're here for... to help the thread find it's way home to the right area of the forum! {toothy}

About being addicted to the adrenalin rush... I'd think that yes it would be possible. It seems that some people thrive on life going full blast, something always happening. I used to be like that in my younger days... worked 7 days a week, 10 to 12 hours a day and loved it! It was awful for awhile when my boss told me I HAD to slow down... back to 40 hour weeks because he was afraid I was burning myself out. It actually was like an addiction.

I hope the panic attacks have stopped. (?) It sounds like you need to let your body and mind know that life is back to a routine existence again. Good luck with that, it might take a bit but I'm sure you can do it. You'll feel healthier in the long run too. Like a friend told me once, someone needs to stamp "stop and smell the roses" on your forehead! {toothy}

[KayDee]

I haven't had the panic attacks in years...at the time I was having them I worked for a professional homecleaning service, and eventually was able to work off the anxiety, and I got better at leaving my worries in God's hands. Right now it's just the challenge of accepting that my husband can no longer legally contact me without legal representation. I won't miss dreading when the phone would ring and screening my calls.

I'll have to get better at stopping to smell the roses again. Thanks,blinc!! :D

[Austruck]

KayDee,

I know what you mean about the adrenaline buzz. When my first husband told me he wanted out (a total surprise to me), I woke up every morning with my heart already racing, as if I hadn't been sleeping, but running a marathon.

The phone would ring and I'd panic. The doorbell would send me over the top. I could barely go shopping without fear of turning the corner of an aisle and something bad happening. I rarely even knew what I thought "something bad" meant -- that didn't matter. The panic-buzz just had to be there 24/7 and wouldn't let up for a long time.

What I learned was to go find some of the "old" me, the pre-marriage me. I sought out old and dear friendships, connected with people who meant something to me for a long time. I took up hobbies I'd had before the marriage. And I prayed a lot -- and read a lot of Scripture, especially the Psalms.

I don't like that feeling of being sneaked-up-on, and that was what usually caused/causes the panics.

Try exercising when the panics hit. That seemed to work off the adrenaline for me (which would explain why your housecleaning job worked it off for you). The nice added side effect was that I ended up losing 40 lbs in the process! (That's one big panic attack!)

We're all pulling for you.

Linda

[KayDee]

I'm looking forward to warmer weather again so I can get outside and walk through the pastures. The restraining order doesn't restrict me from the rest of the property, as long as my husband isn't here. There are lots of hills and timber, good walking paths created by the cattle...just have to watch out for those cowpies!! There is a favorite spot that I love, the highest spot on the farm, where I can get an almost 360 degree panoramic view. In deep summer it's awesome. And so peaceful. Just God and me and the birds!!!
Psalms is a great comfort for me, as well as Isaiah, and the words of our Savior, especially John 14 right now...I also can escape into a good Christian novel and forget my troubles for awhile. Just have to let go and let God...

[PsalmReader's Mom]

Hang in there Kaydee. Haven't experienced panic attacks, but have a friend who has. I'll be supportin from afar. {pinky} "Mom"